Life is Better with Sin (Intro Chapter)

The time comes to check back into reality and climb the subway steps up out to the Manhattan sidewalks. The sun blinds me through the buildings. I’m sure it does it on purpose. Aiming right for my eyes because it knows I can’t stand the sun. I light another cigarette. Fuck it. I know it’s bad for me, but do I really care? The pills have probably dissolved completely by around now. “Maybe I should be grateful to be alive on such a beautiful day” I think to myself. I usually surprise myself with these thoughts. “Boy, have I changed” I chuckle lightly as I take the first drag of the freshly lit cancer stick. I never really had these positive thoughts before. I look over to my left and see the 911 construction site. Funny how life works. So many people lost their lives, yet here I am willing to give mine away. On such a beautifully sunny day…

This is how I start my day.